Happy Saturday! I'm writing this post because I need to put my thoughts where I can see them. Recently, I've been feeling like I'm sinking and there's nothing I can do about it. I am so incredibly stressed and irritable 24/7 and everything pisses me off or makes me want to cry (and I'm not PMSing). School, cheer, friends, family, and everything in between just sucks at the highest level right now. If it was just a few things that sucked, I could handle it, but it's everything all at once and I feel like I'm falling apart. I can't do anything right or make anyone (including myself) happy anymore, and I'm constantly on the verge of tears. Nothing makes me smile, and I always feel like I have zero energy. I have more homework than ever (with the least amount of motivation ever), my "friends" don't seem to care about me and everything they say makes me want to punch them in the face, my family is either telling me to shut up or telling me I'm stupid, I hate cheer with a passion, and all I want to do is lie in bed and do nothing. This isn't me. I'm not a super-happy-all-the-time person, but I'm definitely not this hopeless, lifeless, miserable person either. Everything feels like it's going wrong and I'm just so sad all the time. I just want to feel better again.
Carpe Diem,
Brooke
