Winter Blues

     Happy Monday! Haha I bet that phrase isn't used very often. So you might remember that in a previous post I mentioned that humans tend to be less positive and less productive in the winter because we feel the need, like most mammals, to hibernate. Seriously, how did we miss out on that? I would love to just gather a bunch of junk food (nutella, anyone?) in November and just sleep, eat, and watch movies until March. That sounds much more appealing than having to trek out of my house into the dreary days of winter. If I had it my way, it would be summer all year because I love the heat. Being cold is one of my least favorite things ever.
     Maybe I'm the only one who experiences this, but in the winter I also feel a bit more depressed than I usually do. I'm not sure if my mood is directly related to the weather, but I do know that it's much harder to plaster a smile on my face during the winter months. Lately, finding the motivation for anything seems absolutely impossible. I just become this lazy, unpleasant person in the winter even though I generally consider myself to be a happy person. Sometimes I find myself being impatient, mean, and downright selfish in the winter, and being selfish has to be the least attractive quality in a person. So what is it about the winter that makes me someone completely different? I may never know the answer, but perhaps it's because instead of being surrounded by life in the verdant seasons of spring and summer, I feel like I'm surrounded by this horrible sense of death and closure. I've mentioned before that I have a weird phobia of aging, and maybe winter reminds me of that fear even more; that even though I'm young now, one day soon I will realize how precious life is but it will all be too late. I fear that I will regret not doing things, but now I fear that I will regret actually doing things (like working at that restaurant...). This blog has made me realize how many issues I have!
     I'm 99% sure I'm having a snow day tomorrow, so I'll work on those issues tomorrow. :)

Carpe Diem,
Brooke